"You're going to wake up one day behind on your rent and behind on your dreams."
That's a line from a motivational video I heard years ago that has stuck with me.
I'm not even sure that's exactly how the line goes, but I think about that possibility every now and again, the possibility that despite my educated efforts I could fall behind financially even at the total expense of some personal goal or wish for that matter.
The better way I've since heard this sentiment expressed was in a Jim Carey commencement speech where he talks about his dad being laid off from the accounting job his dad hated, the job his dad worked to support his family.
Jim told the audience of new college graduates, "You can fail at what you don't want to do. So you might as well take a chance on something you love."
This topic is on my mind again because after working Monday through Saturday this week at a 100% commission job, I sold 0 cars.
I'm behind on my metaphorical rent (thanks for the free couch dad).
And though I am taking that chance on a dream, I am behind on my dream as well.
The car gig was an opportunity to earn cash in a hurry. But to date it hasn't been anything to write home about. Last month I sold 9 cars and took home $5,200 before taxes. This month I'm way behind that schedule.
All the while, my mind hasn't be put to use on my own prosperity. And my mind is exactly why I have the confidence to pursue this million dollar mountain in the first place.
I trust my ability find a way to create seven figure value. But I'm not going to get there the I've been spending these past 5 months.
I need to get back to the drawing board. I need to finish this van.